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Monday, April 15, 2013

Spring and Life and Loss

 On the 18th of March I lost one of my very best friends. It was a very long hard day. I am doing my best to remember all the goodness she brought me. Her name was Misty. I loved her much more than I realized. She was very smart and always had great love and compassion. She played with her toys with great joy and I was always amazed at how carefully she played with her squeak toys never tearing them up or injuring them. They would last for years and years.  She stayed near me always by my feet. No matter where I was she wanted to be there. She was happiest sitting on the front porch as in the photo of her older. I miss her so much it hurts to even type this. I find it hard to imagine that it has been nearly a month. I look for her. I try to just let myself have my grief. She is buried in front yard so I talk to her sometimes. Mostly I still just cry at the thought of her. I do still have another dog Molly and I know that she has also been grieving. She has helped me tremendously and I have had to transition from loss to acceptance so that Molly will not be as sad as I am. Seems silly to say that but I have noticed this makes a big difference in how she is when I am less grieved. Amazing animals and how they teach us to love with our whole heart. She was 14 but I always told her that she never really showed her age. The photo below was taken last summer.


So .. finally spring has taken hold here and there is new growth. Rain has caused an eruption of life. I am enjoying seeing the buds and the flowers and blooming of leaves. I am grateful for the warmer weather and glad to turn off the heat. I don't like the cold. So I am hopeful to keep coming back and posting. Here are some photos that I've enjoyed of spring. I love love love the fuzzy leaves.



 I really love these leaves. They look like hairy leaves but the hairs are soft. They grow big as big as 12 -15 inches wide. They are amazing. You can click on any of the photos to seem them larger.



 I am still working on being artist creator believing that I can sustain my life doing what I most love. I seem to always enjoy the times when I sit down and stitch. I find the repetition of straight stitches to be very soothing and I never seem to run out of things to create with this process. Below are some photos of a few things I have made. One is a necklace and the other is a bracelet. The bracelet doesn't seem to show up as pretty as it is in person.



 Then there is always a pot of rust or walnuts brewing in the yard. I find that I am still very much addicted to rust and walnut and anything fiber. I may just have to explore this area much much more. And there I am in a bucket of walnuts with fabric bathing in the rich browness of them. I like the slow ways more and more.





 These last two photos are what I consider composted fabric. I have left some of my fabrics outside and there is something really appealing to seeing what happens to fabric as it breaks down. Sometimes it makes me go back to my original intent of starting this blog with photo of broken glass. There is some measure of beauty in things that age naturally .. as naturally as they can when they are left to the elements even when they are man made fabrics or materials a variety of materials. I find that worthy of exploring. Hope you've enjoyed the ride along with me today. Thanks for stopping over.




12 comments:

  1. Hi there Tammy, it's always só sad to loose such a dear pet-friend !!! I hope you and Molly get over it soon ...
    Wow, the hairs on those leaves : beautiful !
    I love your necklace and especially the bracelet !
    The eco dyed fabrics will find their way into something lovely from your hands no doubt !
    Have a good week !

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  2. Thanks Els for stopping over and leaving a comment. I hope you have a good week too!!! I will stop over to your blog.

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  3. Oh, so sorry about your sweet friend. When my cat, Sophia, died, Pasha cat sat on the back steps, watching us bury her... he was soooo sad with me for days afterwards. I know that feeling of looking for someone who is usually right there, but no longer. Healing to you as you navigate your grief.

    Your work looks wonderful. I love the composted fabric, been thinking something along those lines, too.

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    1. Thanks for the kind words and comments. It is amazing how much animals become an important part of our lives. Molly is not really the same since Misty's passing. We'll get by.

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  4. Oh Tammy - I'm so sorry. I still am sad about the loss of my Odin dog too, so I know how you feel. {{{hugs to you}}}

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    1. I have to say I am amazed with how many people have experienced this loss. I've lost other animals but none have hit me quite this hard. Thanks for the hugs. Sorry for your loss also.

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  5. I am so sorry for your loss..my dear Kitty Karma is buried up in the yard and I've put a flat water dish over the spot and a little glass cup with a candle in it. That little warm light in the yard at night feels right. It's been nearly a year and I still see her little black and whiteness out of the corner of my eye.

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    1. I love the idea of the candle outside. When we buried Misty my son dug up a daffodil plant that was blooming and planted it over her grave, it has taken root and seems to be thriving there .. for some reason this makes me happy. Sorry for your loss also!

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  6. Tammy, so sorry for your loss. Loosing loved ones is always so hard. The fuzzy growth and new stitches look great!

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    1. Thanks for stopping by Nancy and for your comments and kind words.

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  7. I'm sorry for your loss, even though it is a couple of years ago. Losing a beloved pet can ben very painful.

    I'm also interested in this plant with fuzzy leaves. Or is it a tree? Do you know the name?

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    1. It still hurts me to think of her ..........I still love her very much. The fuzzy leaves are from a tree...I think it's called a Paulownia tomentosa. Thanks for stopping over and commenting. :)

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