The face of a man 18th painting out of 100 faces I will paint

I took a bit longer today.. or aaaaaaaa ok i was a little obsessed with the details of this one. I have only done one boy and one other man in this so far. Men can be harder I think when you are used to doing beautiful women but this man ......he just struck me. And it occurred to me this morning while I was painting how I still go through this incredible struggle as I create not to be self critical and yet I feel compelled to make a face speak something. Maybe it's part of being an artist that I am also an emotional person .. i don't know if that is true for all artists. I can only speak for me. As I was painting I realized that one of the reasons I picked this face is because the lips were like .. wow .. haha.. and this beautiful dark skin, then this question popped in my head, how could you not love this face and this man is a beautiful man? And i followed it with a response. (I know I talk to myself haha ) Maybe all humans should see like artists.

I know that I have been painting beautiful faces with one day of sticking my tongue out to that idea that I don't always want to paint magazine beautiful women. I decided to give myself a break and just paint what I'm moved to paint even if they are beautiful faces, it's usually the eyes that get me. I honestly think that I can't totally separate my heart from my painting. I look at the shape of the face, I look at the eyes .....eyes speak volumes. A casual look can say....much or little ....but I can't not love the incredible shapes of this face and not feel fondly toward this man .. now maybe it's because he's a man haha and I'm a woman, but I do love each one of my faces that I paint.. I think painting people feels a bit intimate to me. Maybe that's putting a lot into it but that's what I noticed today.  As I go I'm going to try to be aware of this .. I have some other ideas I'm mulling over. No matter what it is a learning process. This is for my benefit and I'm sharing this honestly with you.

Maybe today as you go about your day you will consider the idea of looking at the eyes of a person, and the contours of their face and the shape of their mouth and their nose and all the details and remember that there is a heart attached to it and no doubt we all have similar feelings from time to time, we are all human. After i reread this I thought you know I sort of do this with bugs or animals too hahah .. when I get up close and notice the details I am fascinated and I love the details .. so i love the bug haha .. maybe that's what I need to do . . paint everyone and love the world.

Well almost two hours later than I have posted the others. And yes this is day 18 so the price is yep .. $18. Message me if you would like to have this face today. ANd ofcourse I love hearing what you're thinking about my sharing and my work. I will keep going no matter what. THank you for taking a look. Have a wondefilled day!! oh and this is 8"x11" on sewn wrapping paper that my mother saved for years. :) I think she'd like that I am using it this way.

Day 6 .. of 100 faces in 100 days.. what I think

Ok .. not hyper realistic.. it is an experiment and doing today's painting I had a lot going on in my head. So I decided to just do that .. not pretty I guess. SO here's what comes up .. i think everyone wants to see pretty pictures. I want everyone to love me .. so i want everyone to like what I paint. Sometimes i take myself way to seriously .. I want artist friends to like my work and some do but many don't say anything. I think what they think .. or let me say I tell a story to myself about why they do or do not do something I want. When I put it out there like this I realize how ridiculous that sounds. So I really just want to be honest with myself .. when I went onto facebook this morning I really didn't want to post this image. I really thought .. well they (who are they?) are not going to love this, because it's not a beautiful face .. not lovely .. not refinely finished. I judge myself pretty harshly .. i write letters and get no response and I imagine what they think .. i assure you it isn't good what i imagine their reasons are. I get angry.. and no one likes to be around angry negative people. So .. why does it come up that way? Change is hard.. not sure how I can only paint pretty pictures. I'm just putting out my honest feelings. I want things to be different for me. Not be so serious. I do love painting and I love faces and eyes. Doesn't every person even the ones that dont look like magazine images of beautiful men and women want to be loved for who they are. I can be angry about that but in the end i picture me stomping my feet and wanting to scream just love me .. and i can't see people running up to that. So .. do you tell people that? Or just don't ever really tell the truth and hope you'll get better at enjoying your life and what is around you. So .. thanks for stopping over and reading my rant today if you did. Tomorrow's another day .. it's only day six in this experiment ..hmmmm lots more days to go. haha..