Today my portrait is called Robert. Yesterday I went to a funeral. It was Robert's father who passed. Robert and his brothers and parents lived in Africa when we did. Robert was in my class. He was shy and sweet. Sometimes other children that were less shy and over confident seemed to pick on Robert. I always felt protective of him. This was again .. all under the age of 11. I saw a few other people at this funeral who were also children who lived in Africa. I had not seen them in over 20 years. Some I didn't recognize most I did. But I had to hug each one, I felt so delighted to see these long ago children that I played with and that were long time friends of my parents. It seemed so odd to me to see them aged. Amazing how the pictures stay in your mind as you grow older, the memories never age. But here we all were balding, gray haired and more comfortable in our skin. I didn't really know Robert's father too well. I went for his son's but mostly for Robert. He was always a sweet boy and I think he will always be a sweet boy, even with his big eyes and graying hair. I was heartbroken to see the deeply felt loss expressed on his face as he listened to all the accounts that were spoken of his dad. His last parent to say goodbye too.
He was buried with military honors. Once everyone was seated or standing by the graveside. The actions of the soldiers were slow and precise. It was so moving to watch two military men walk from their present poised position of attention and slowing walk to the casket. It seemed like everything slowed down and all eyes watched as their hands held each corner of the flag and their fingers holding gently this flag and their fingers trailing down to the corners of the fabric holding all the way down. Eloquently, they removed the flag from his fathers casket and began to fold it so precisely and carefully. I was impressed with the pomp and circumstance of their fully decorated uniforms and the reverence with which the two soldiers interacted with each other. Their eyes even strategically looking at the flag the entire time, the purposefulness of each fold and then transferring from one soldier to the other. Their respect for the flag was felt as gentleness and caring so strong that it hung in the air like a sweet perfume. The trumpet playing taps and then the final act of placing the folded flag in the hands of Robert. He saluted the soldier. There were no tissues .. we were excused...i walked quickly toward the car I was riding in. There was a long silence. Then I enjoyed the reception afterward. The sharing of a meal is always a good time to reminisce and meet family that you've never met. We talked about getting together as a group of children who lived in Africa. I hope we do.
To Robert, be gentle with yourself as you grieve. Remember always what was good. Rest and find time to look for joy again. My thoughts are with you and your family.
So today's portrait painted with Robert on my heart and mind. Available for $29 today. Send me a message to iwilldream4ever@aol.com if you would like him on your wall. Thanks for following me on the journey .. I'll see you tomorrow. I hope you hug someone and say I love you to those you mean too. ciao
This is the second time today I have dissolved into tears (my blog post for today explains the first episode). Your story made me feel as though I was there....that I knew this man. Your description of the flag folding was just so amazingly poignant. I really do hope Robert reads this post and knows how much he is cared for.
ReplyDeleteI'm coming over to read your post .. and thank you for your comments .. my sweet and faithful follower. And I hope so too .. that Robert will read it.
DeleteWhat a beautiful eloquent story. Not only a visual artist, you're a wordsmith as well. I hope that Robert sees this post. I wish I had the money to buy every one of your paintings. Robert's is hauntingly beautiful and I really hope I get to meet you one day. So glad Mendi told me about you.
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Thank you ..
DeleteTammy, I put a link up to this piece on my FB page telling people to go and look at it and read the story as well. The girl who ended up buying it is a good friend of mine, Karson. Now the amazing thing is that Mendi wanted to buy it but you told her that a vet wanted it and she said to let the vet have it. What Mendi didn't know is that the vet was Karson who is Mendi's cousin! How's that beautiful synchronicity? I thought this was such a beautiful story I had to tell you. Hope tomorrow is a better day. Lisa
ReplyDeleteYes .. it was a beautiful story. and yes .. makes realize how important story is.. i feel very blessed. I have had a wonderful day visiting with an old friend. Thank you for the comments .. I have to say .. that Mendi is a special lady for sure!!!!
DeleteSo yes this painting is sold to Karson a Vet. I am honored for her to have it.
ReplyDeleteTheir respect for the flag and perhaps for the man they were there to honor...
ReplyDeleteI can feel his shallow breathing, this Robert you've painted.