I think that somehow I put my feelings into my paintings. I don't know always if that comes through but I do seem to be told that people sense emotion in the faces. I think there was a time that I wanted to paint emotion. Probably somewhere in my life I lacked approval and so my tendency is to seek approval for what I do .. for who I am. I don't always feel this way. I don't really paint for approval. I paint or make or stitch or create anything because I love to do it. On the really bad days.. all I want is to be told I am lovable or worth loving. I suppose everyone wants that. Life happens and it isn't always pleasant. I'm grateful that my experience has taught me that feelings pass and something will distract my train wreck of thoughts and my mind will go down a road that is more pleasant and less emotional. I will get over myself haha. Thank goodness.
So .. I have no story to tell today.
I will be back tomorrow.
My email is iwilldream4ever@aol.com if you want to own this face for $28. Painted on my mom's wrapping paper and one of her handwritten letters to her father. Sewn together and then painted with acrylic paint. Approx 8x10.
what an amazing body of work you are creating here Tammy, seeing all 100 faces together as a photo montage will be amazing and the stories each face evokes are wonderful, thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThank you Mo .. I so appreciate that coming from you .. such a talented lady you are. Thanks for stopping over and making a comment.
ReplyDeleteNo story? Not at all true - you did tell a story as you shared your thoughts. Perhaps the story didn't relate directly to the painting itself, but it tells about you, as the painter. Yes, a story. A sharing. I can identify so much with what you're saying too - I am constantly searching for approval of what I do, even though, once I receive that approval, I don't believe that they mean it. Why are we so hard on ourselves?
ReplyDeleteThank you Mary Anne .. my faithful follower .. your correct. I did tell a bit of my own story. I think I believe it .. but you know I do sometimes say, so nice of you, which is like saying you had to be nice to say something that may be true. Sometimes I want approval from specific people but really .. it wouldn't deter me or spur me on well maybe a little. I'm thinking the important this is that I keep going no matter what I or anyone thinks. It's good.. all good.
DeleteOkay, I am hoping against all hope that this piece has my name on it. The story is in the letter and the look in this woman's eyes. Today is my birthday and my birthday wish is that this beautiful poignant piece of art will get to come live with me.
ReplyDeleteDear Lisa .. yes it's YOURS .. Happy Birthday. !!! I'm just so delighted that you wanted this piece and that you wanted it on your Birthday .. I'm so moved and touched. Really!!! And beyond delighted that you have it .. must have been meant for you to discover today. Thank you .. email to follow.
DeleteYay!!!! The universe opened up for me today!
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DeleteAh, but her face does tell a story...perhaps the story you told, that one when you said "I don't always feel this way"...so perhaps there is half of her with the written words reaching down towards her mouth, from her brain to her mouth, the voice expressing her emotions...and the other half that doesn't always feel that way. Notice how the wordy eye seems set back a bit further, deeper in thought than the other (her right) eye? Yes, I thought so too. She's a beauty. Especially because we all have a little bit of both in us.
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