Wednesday early morning Hot attack

Its so hot I can't sleep and i feel sick to my stomach. Then I sit here in this chair in front of the fan and write and fall asleep haha. I haven't created anything new in a few days .. I'm starting to go into withdrawal. I'll have to make something tomorrow. But it's going to be another hot day. I painted my nails last week. I thought I'd take a photo and post it haha .. since that is the only proof I have that I did it. Temporary art. Then I thought i'd post this picture of a dead moth that I found in my house. I was really amazed by the graphic look of the design on it's wings.   Its really amazing the art that nature creates for itself. I love it!!!

Tshirts

I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted. I've been busy trying to figure out what to do next and I'm having a good time creating all the time. And have sold a few tshirts. I love that!!  Here are some of the shirts that I have now. I guess I also havent been posting because my dog Molly got bit by a copperhead snake and that was the most upsetting thing that I have ever been through. She was in such incredible pain it nearly killed me to see her like that. Its left me with loving her even more then ever before. I'm so grateful to be past that and to see her with little side effects to it now. She has just a small scab from a bigger scab that finally fell off after two weeks. I truely feel like she is a cat with nine lives.. i think she's used up at least half already.

Anyway .. i've missed coming here and trying to focus on the art. Hope you enjoy it.

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For Sale at www.hennessyhandbags.etsy.co

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Almost Friday night

Ok it's Thursday night and early July. It's been a while since I've posted here and I really thought the next time I posted I'd have put up my tshirts on etsy but no ... i haven't yet. This is just an illustration that expressed some feelings I was having that day. I had written a long post about it but it was so dismal I am editing it today. Just as in this little illustration the girl is crying and has tissues and golashes haha and when I see that I think .. atleast when the crying is over I can run and jump in the puddles with my golashes lol!!!  That I love to do. I actually have a pair and if you can imagine me wearing a pair of jean shorts and a tank top with these big white rubber boots walking behind a mower that was me this week!!! haha .. THAT was so much fun!!! So I'm glad that I can go back and edit things that I say. Too bad we can't do that in real life .. edit our words after the fact. Edit our life. I'm going to edit my life today!!! :)

Today I went and picked the first fruits available at the local fruit farm. The blackberries are so big you can see they fill up the teaspoon that one is laying in. Amazing. I think I will fix a blackberry cobbler and the raspberries .. hhmmmmmm i have eaten alot of them already. Perhaps something chocolate with raspberry sauce. yummmy....... I'm trying to finish uploading my photos of the tshirts. I get so distracted by my life. I have all this time on my hands and yet it seems to slip away so quickly. I don't know what to do first sometimes. I have lots of cleaning that needs doing.. lots of art that is made and needs to go up for sale. Lots of things to make into something. It's just so many things.... where to start where to start. First I will eat blackberries!!!  haha...

Tuesday

The above photo is a great frame that a friend of mine made for me several months back. I was out thrift shopping and found these great bolts and nuts and thought if i had a whole bunch of them I could make this frame for a potholder rug myself and I called my friend and asked him a question about the bolts. He told me to come over. I showed him what I wanted and we built it together and then we had a great mexican dinner lol!!  I finally got around to putting it together and had the fabric so i spent several hours cutting and then several more hours weaving and this is what I got .. after taking it off the frame its about a 5 foot x 7 foot rug. It's yellow. I love it .. Sadly my house is such a disaster that I don't even have a place to lay it. I have it folded on the bed. I'm planning to give it to my friends wife since he is the one that made the frame and provided the wood. My fingers are sore from the cutting. But I want to make more. Now that I know how it all goes together. It was fun! You know I get all happy knowing that I have talents and am able to draw and make art and create things out of peoples discarded things, but every time I try to sell these things it never seems to happen. I don't know why that is. I do have an etsy shop but I guess I haven't put enough on there. I have some things and I know that I can add more and more but I haven't done it yet. Here are some of my other works. The flower pot illustration is fun. I think I should make more of these. Little pots of flowers. Other artists do big canvases and make big bucks. Do I sound like I'm whining? I don't know if creative works go with brokeness. Perhaps I should say less and be more mysterious.

Saturday Night Fever

I think I know what the heck I'm doing and I imagine myself doing what I normally would do on a Saturday night and then.. I don't feel like going and I don't want to leave again. I guess I'm feeling lonely but I don't want to be with people. That seems odd to me. Trying to find things to be grateful for because I feel sorry for myself. Maybe its a statement of contrasts. Who knows .. I don't seem to be able to make any decisions lately. Thanks for looking. You know I was looking at these photos and thinking its not that it's broken as much as what's holding the pieces together. Its the connection that intrigues me.

Another week gone by

I still can't believe that another week is over. I feel like I've been wandering around wondering which road to take. I had an email from someone that I have been writing too about spiritual things and got the impression that he was ending the conversation and for some reason this really poked me and I found myself feeling this avalanche of emotion. I went to bed and cried for what felt like hours. When I awakened in the morning I felt like I had a hangover.. a crying all night feeling hangover. Distance always has a way of reshaping the events or giving one a perspective that emotions seems to cloud. I realized that the emotion was totally not in line with what was happening. So why did that happen? I decided that I was triggered about feeling rejected. God knows I've had plenty of rejection and some felt so deep that it cut to the center of my soul and while I may not be able to put my finger on the exact one rejection that hurt the most, i wonder if it may be collective. The sum of all rejection was experienced at that moment. Maybe I cried a big piece out of my heart so that the next time I might feel this way it won't hurt quite so much. Who knows ..but it certainly clouded my whole week and it makes it difficult to leave the house. So yeah I feel a tad depressed but .. it'll get better. Things change.. so does life. I sure do miss the followers that had commented .. .