Day 47
And so it continues. Some day's I just get lost in the portrait. .. this is a dark face......the eyes are staring into space it seems ..
This is the only thing this makes me think of.
I had a teacher once .. probably one of the only really hard stories I recall while living in Africa. But she was my first grade teacher. First grade where your supposed to love school. Love learning. I was a busy talkative girl. Probably loved painting and drawing even then.. I had to stand in line to go out of the room we were in. I guess I was talking too much. I'm quite certain I was happy to be there and most likely chatting with a girl nearby but I don't recall. What I do however remember is out of nowhere I felt this burning sting on the back of my right calf. My leg was bare under the dress I was wearing and I screamed out at this sting and quickly I looked at this spot on my leg to see a long red mark on the back of my leg. Standing over me was my first grade teacher, Mrs. H .. i'll refrain from saying her real name. She was looking at me with a face of disdain and told me I should remember to be quite when I was standing in line. The tears welled up in my eyes and I tried to look straight ahead and quite my desire to start sobbing. The only other thing I can remember about this woman was that when it was time for us to paint fingernail polish on empty plastic bleach containers I spilled my polish and got into trouble again. I don't remember second and third grade at all. I have no recollection of who the teachers were or what I did. Always interesting to note I find .. So .. this face is a comtemplation. And a reminder that old stings linger still .... best to use less harshness with children I'm thinking. Best to show kindness and love rather then harsh words and violent use of punishment to make a point. So .. i realize no one may want to own the back story on this painting but .. it is what it is. You probably don't read these anyway. I guess it just helps me get through the process some days. It's all good .
If you want to own this portrait email me at iwilldream4ever@aol.com. This portrait is $47. It is painted on a file folder with a piece of tissue paper from the wrapping paper bin and an old letter I wrote to my parents when they were away. See you tomorrow..
I can see the sadness and hurt in her eyes. How sad that a person in authority could be so cruel to a small child who had yet to learn to conform to the expectations society seems to insist on.
ReplyDeleteIt is sad that one person can have such a neg. impact as well.. so .. i forget the day before when I speak to the children and yet perhaps they too have this kind of experience.. I hope that they find the joy in life as they seem to in painting. I do find that the painting is a great gift to me. Inspite of anything that may have happened. Thank you as always for leaving a comment...
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