Always a dreamer

In my idealistic view of the world I do really believe that all will be ok... only the fear of what might not or may happen just seems to take over my mind and thoughts. It's never fun following fear. I looked back over alot of my blog posts and think that I am always lamenting. Perhaps just focusing on the positive is a better position. I have been stuck in my head and my thinking. Its funny how you can get caught in the trap of negativity .. Generally however I am finding that no matter what the emotion I can always use this for creativity. No matter the feeling. Sometimes in strange ways the harder emotions create better work .. perhaps it's just the passion of the moment of feeling that does it. I think this is true for the more pleasant emotions as well. In spite of everything I am going to hold out that something will shift into a more tolerable circumstance. No matter what the outcome. I am going to believe that it will be good even if it's not what I want.. because I can always make something out of next to nothing. I finished the piece of cloth for my girlfriends birthday and will give it to her tomorrow. That is the photo above.

A week ago I babysat my grand daughters and I had taken my new stitched ragged purse that I glued one of my little girl illustrations on to. My grand daughter Mariah really loved it! I was so tickled that I told her that I would make one for her. I said ok what color do you want? She said Purple!!!  YEAH!!!! .. i Love that she wanted it purple. So .. I started to make one for her. Then the next week I unexpectedly babysat again the following week .. a few days ago... and wondered if she would remember that she wanted the purse. I had started it but it wasn't finished. I brought everything with me and if she'd remembered I planned to attempt to stitch it all up for her by hand while we were together. So ... i get there . .. and am so happy to greet them and they are happy to see me .. A few minutes after I got there.. Mariah asks me if I had her purse. She just turned three a few months ago. I was surprised really that she would remember. I don't know why. But I said yes I started it but I have to finish it still. So .. between fixing breakfast and lunch and baths and playing silly and loving on them.. i managed to stitch her purse. I'd still like to add more things to it.. .. like her name.. some flowers maybe .. but I can't tell you how simply divine it was to see her face when I gave it to her mostly finished. She loved it better than anyone could .. she smiled proudly and put it on her shoulder .. she held it close .. she was so pleased. If anything can melt a heart it is her loving me in the perfect way that she does. On the left is a photo that I tried to take of her holding it .. she was tired and decided to cover up on the couch just before I left her.. when I remembered I wanted to capture a photo of it. It's not as clear as I'd like but .. it is here. It's a velor purple shirt that I cut up that had some flowers stamped into the cloth .. and I did a discharged denim handle and the girl is glued onto a piece of discharged denim. This is really an experiment to see if the modge podged girl will last on the cloth .. i machine stitched the illustration to the purple and then stitched everything by hand. It seems sturdy enough to last a while but certainly a child can give it a good test. If it doesn't last I will just make more. It was fun to make though. ANd thats all i have to share today .. thanks for stopping by .. it's means the world to me. :)